Thursday, April 12, 2007

this is a long one...

I have to admit this has been one week! Thru the years I have had many trials. I realized about 7 year ago that my happiness is up to me. I have worked very hard to come to the place I am in my little world. I basically have been a work in progres. This is a good, and poitive thing. I love my life. This might sound a little nutty, but I am always so excited to wake up, and start a new day. There is just so much good in life. Today isn't one of those days. Have you ever had a week, that everytime you turn around there is another probelm? Not a little problem, something that rattles your world. That is just how this week has been. We got home from Logandale on Sunday night. I had such a happy, and full heart. I think this was the calm before the storm. We have had teenager problems, teenager girlfriend problems, sleepless nights, a stepdad that is headed to surgery soon, Steve's stepdad that had emergency surgery thru the night last night, a mother in law that's heart is breaking, etc. You get the picture. I sit here, and think about life. I think about why we are here. I think about Heavenly Father's plan. I also am thinking that Heavenly Father has to be tired of me. I think I have been in prayer at least every 2 hours. I a joking about the part that he is tired of me. I know how he loves me. So this post is not the most upbeat one that I have posted. This post is from my heart. I know that everything will work out just the way it is supposed to.

14 Comments:

Blogger sarah said...

Michelle. I just want you to know that you are one of the most positive people I know. Thank you for being so wonderful and such a great person. I'm sorry that things are all happening at the same time. And I hope that the surgeries go well. I hope that everything turns out good. Your Heavenly Father loves you and he hears you. Maybe you needed this time to pray, so that you could feel his spirit and his love for you.

April 12, 2007 at 2:42 PM  
Blogger Andrea said...

Michelle, I hope things don't go anywhere but up from here...My thoughts and prayers are with you! Keep us updated! HUGS!!! :)

April 12, 2007 at 4:10 PM  
Anonymous jenny c. said...

I am so sorry to hear about your week. I will add an extra prayer in their for you and your family. Big hugs!!

April 12, 2007 at 5:27 PM  
Blogger donna said...

Michelle, what a hard few days. WOW being a parent is so hard and it never gets easy. You and Steve are wonderful parents and you have great kids. I know you and Steve are going thru some teenager son problems. I know it gets so frustrating when our children think they are all grown up and think they are ready to make big decisions about their life’s. All I can say is stay strong. Don’t back down, and keep praying. Heavenly Father never gets tired of hearing from us. If so, then I am in big trouble. I am always praying for help and strength all day long

When I was on my mission, ( Back in the day) I had a picture of our Savior and it said “I never said it would be easy, just worth it.” So true. Whenever I feel like I just can’t handle anymore, I think about that picture.

I am so sorry to hear about Steve's stepdad. Your family will be on my prayers and thoughts.
Please keep me post.
Big HUGS!
Donna

April 12, 2007 at 6:31 PM  
Blogger Michelle A. said...

Michelle - You're right about how your happiness is up to the self. I feel for you, life can get so tough and you never know what's going to happen even in the next second. Your problems are so similar to so many others and it's good to think that way, so that you can have some peace knowing your not alone. However! It doesn't make your trials any less hurtful, hard, or the outcome any less unknowing. I am truly sorry your having these trials. Heavenly Father does know you and knows that you'll be able to get through, and help someone else in the end.

April 12, 2007 at 7:15 PM  
Blogger Rachel said...

I love that you opened your heart in this post (free therapy, right?). Sometimes it just helps to share the things we're going through! You are an amazing woman and we are all allowed to feel crappy...you're still a positive, up beat person! I will keep you in my prayers (I, too am in prayer quite often for my trials)!!! Lots of Love!

April 12, 2007 at 9:08 PM  
Blogger Brandi said...

I was watching Oprah the other day, and it was about happineness, your post made me think about it. Thank you for reminding me that Happiness is up to me. I need that now and then. Thank you for the post that is from your heart.

April 12, 2007 at 9:32 PM  
Blogger michelle said...

I want to tell you all thank you. Your comments really mean a lot to me. What wonderful, and supportive friends I have.

April 12, 2007 at 9:37 PM  
Blogger Rebecca D. said...

oh sweet friend! I just feel your hurt and can imagine your sweet spirit in need of comfort! I have this beautiful image in my mind right now. I see you on bended knee pouring your heart out in prayer, arms opened as if telling your Heavenly Father " ok! I need you RIGHT now!" Then I see Our loving Heavenly Father taking you in His arms and blessing you with peace and comfort. It's such a beautiful image!!!

Michelle, this is a time of refining fire. No matter what I can see you coming out of this with your head high and your testimony strengthened. You our a special person deserving of so much. HF knows you so well. He will take care of you!

love ya!!!

April 13, 2007 at 9:45 AM  
Blogger sista # 2 said...

As my sista #1 has said in the past..."parenting really bites!"
It is hard hard hard! It is also the best best best! We would all agree! Then add other family problems in the mix - it's a difficult recipe for sure. You are a doll! My heart goes out to you.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts -ciao, Janae

April 13, 2007 at 9:59 AM  
Blogger Stephanie said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are having some hard times. When I have hard times, I always ask myself what is Heavenly Father trying to teach me. What do I need to know.....or how is this going to make me a stronger/better person. It is hard being a parent and thank goodness Heavenly Father doesn't get tired of hearing from us. Faith and Prayer are biggies in this life. I hope you will have the strength that you need to get through a hard situation. You and your family are in my prayers.

April 13, 2007 at 11:29 AM  
Blogger Amy said...

Even your complaining is so positive, Michelle! You seriously impress me with your upbeat posts, so you're definitely allowed to admit to bad days. Hope things get better quickly. Life hands us some pretty tough battles, but I think the toughest are the ones that we have to sit & watch our loved ones suffer through. My prayers are with you & yours!

April 14, 2007 at 12:30 AM  
Blogger so grateful to be Mormon! said...

hi michelle: i think this is my first time here on your blog, but i was moved by what you wrote in this post. you got to me. i just said that very thing yesterday to someone about how we are works in progress. and ultimately, your post does sound positive in you.

God is not tired of you or any of us :) He wants us to want Him in our lives.

we are always in His hands (and we are graven upon the palm of His hands) and He is gently guiding us through this life, giving us experiences, people, good thing, challenging things, .. that help us to grow into the people we have become. we are more than just human beings. we are humans becoming. i read that somewhere and like it.

glad i happened upon your site; your words feel like they are from the heart.

greetings from anchorage alaska.
all things good to you and yours this day :)

April 14, 2007 at 8:59 AM  
Blogger Carolee said...

Thanks for that post. It seems like this entire year has been one bad thing after another or one more thing to worry about. I have been trying really hard not to let it get me down and it has actually been my goal to make every effort to rise above these challenges. I too am a work in progress!! Its good to know that desite all of this our Heavely Father loves us and knows what is best. I just keep reminding myself that my blessing far out way my trials. Life is good!!

April 14, 2007 at 11:01 PM  

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